Getting older is scary. And even though I’m only 25, that’s the oldest I’ve ever been! So yeah, it does freak me out that in 4 years and 8 months I’ll be 30, because in my head I should already have everything figured out by now. And I don’t.
And I’ve realised, since falling flat faced into my twenties, there are things I do almost religiously that I never did before that reflect how “in-between” understanding I am. I’m utterly on the fence, in the grey, hopping over the line between 50p vodka shots and heating up baby bottles.
So I thought, why not share this crippling fear with you guys? And I’m doing that in a list of things that I do since turning 20, that I never did/worried about before.
- Count my money jar. Because surely someone slipped £100 in coppers in it when I wasn’t looking, right?
- Ignore letters. I used to get super excited when I got a letter – but now when I see a statement I recoil in fear. In the bin, it must go!
- Question the meaning of life. Constantly.
- Come up with crazy schemes to become a millionaire overnight. Usually on a Sunday.
- Convince myself that I could have made it big as an actress, if only my mum and dad had sent me to the Hermione audition, I could be in Emma Watson’s shoes right now.
- Buy candles. And storage jars. And anything less than £4 in Ikea.
- Scroll through the most expensive houses on Right Move and imagine where I’d put the previous mentioned Ikea items.
- Make a decision to have kids.
- Make a decision not to have kids.
- Rant about how expensive rent is all the damn time.
- Watch The Chase.
- Enjoy The Chase.
- Answer questions like “so when are you going to get engaged?”
- Get actually, medically stressed.
- Throw caution to the wind.
- Desperately try to catch caution again, because you’re actually still scared of most things.
- Appreciate a cup of coffee/tea in the morning.
- Understand my parents.
- Decide that eloping is the only option.
- Realise that everyone, absolutely everyone, is just winging it.
So how about you guys? What do you do now you’re in your 20s that you never did before?